Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Despair of the Marquis

espair of the Marquis
The hour was late when Death arrived in the bedroom of the young Marquis Raymond de Villa. Resting upon his bed, pale, with every pulsating blue vein fully visible, laid the Marquis’s newlywed wife. From her cracked, pink lips wheezed out strained breaths. The only other sound as pitiful as her breathing was the sound of the Marquis weeping by the foot of the bed. Lifting his head from his hands, he looked over at his dying wife. The flickering candlelight made dark shadows danced under the bags in his eyes, bags that would normally belong to a man twice his age. These past two months had drained the Marquis of his youth over the bemoaning of his ill beloved. Once handsome not long ago, grief appeared to had robbed him of several years. His full head of hair, comprised of chestnut ringlets, had been invaded by streaks of gray, and his face had grown gaunt from lack of proper sleep and loss of appetite.
“Do not be saddened, my dear,” said the Marquis’s beloved. “My passing is of no fault of yours.”
“But it is, Antonia!” cried the Marquis. “I should have taken better care of you—I should have paid attention to your condition sooner.”
Antonia bent her dry lips into a slight smile. “I do not wish for the last sight of my husband to be one of despair. Dying so young prevents me from committing grievous sins in the future, so I’m sure God’s kingdom awaits me after my soul leaves this world.”
The Marquis caressed Antonia’s face. “You always did have a gift for finding the good in everything. I’m sure Heaven’s angels will welcome you with open arms.” The Marquis held his beloved’s hand, adorned with a diamond wedding ring, brought it to his lips and kissed it. “I’ll be happy for your sake, I promise.”
“I’m glad.” Antonia reached to stroke the Marquis’s hair, or at least tried to, but was interrupted by a sudden fit of coughing that racked her whole body. Her chest lurched up and down, and in her anguish, finally surrendered her soul to the clutches of death. Antonia’s body fell limp, and the Marquis was left to sit and stare at her beloved for what seemed like an immeasurable stretch of time.

For an entire week the Marquis cloistered himself within the confines of his bedroom, keeping all the curtains drawn, shutting the room in darkness. Daily, servants would leave food by the door, knocking at four hour intervals three times a day, indicating breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Upon the request of the Marquis, his meals consisted only of puddles of gray, lukewarm gruel in featureless pewter bowls. Only when the hallway outside his room was silent, devoid of any footsteps or murmur, the Marquis would crack open his door and snatch up the bowl before anyone could notice.
On the seventh day of the Marquis lament, he heard a loud knocking on his door. He opened it just a crack, revealing one eye gleaming from the palpable gloom. The Marquis’s trespasser was a young servant, a freckled boy with shoulder-length red hair beaming with a gap-toothed smile.
“How dare you disturb me, Vega,” the Marquis said. “Leave me at once!”
“But, Your Grace,” Vega began, “you have been sulking in your misery for a whole week. The world outside continues and it beckons you to fulfill your duties as Marquis. There are rumors within these halls and beyond whisper that you are no longer fit for your station.”
“The world be damned!” The Marquis began to shut the door, but the servant stuck his foot out quick to block it. The Marquis glared at the insolent boy with ire so bright that the Vega felt his skin prickle with reproach. “And you be damned, boy! I should have left you on the streets where I found you.”
“I mean you no offense, Your Grace. But if you’re going to grieve until you reunite with your late wife then you might as well end your life now. You accomplish nothing by sobbing into your pillow day in and day out.”
The Marquis grabbed the boy by his collar and yanked him close with sudden force. “Hold your tongue! Do you not think I have considered the option a dozen times over? Do you not think I have stood on the brink of death just so that I may see my Antonia again? The very thoughts burrow through my brain like worms in a fetid apple. I long for death, boy, more so than I ever thought possible, and it scares me! The one thing in my life that made me happy was stolen from me before I even had time to fully appreciate her! If all you’ve come for is to mock and prod me into an early grave then be gone, serpent!”
The Marquis shoved the boy back, making him stumble onto his behind.
“Marquis,” Vega said, getting back on his feet. “What if I told you that there may be yet a way to bring Antonia back to this world? At what cost would you bring her back? What say you?”
“I say you are madder than I am!” The Marquis slammed his bedroom door shut, ushering in a length of silence to occupy the hallway.
“But Your Grace,” Vega said after a moment, standing outside the door. “There’s news of a miracle worker in town. An Abyssinian woman. They say she has powers, powers to do all manner of things. Surely, she can bring back your Antonia.” There was a more silence as Vega stared at the closed door, studying the engraved grapevine motif. “Your Grace…?”
The door cracked open again, but this time ever so slightly as to not reveal any part of the Marquis to his on looking servant.
“See if this woman’s powers are true,” the Marquis said. “Then bring her to me. If you speak false, I will have your tongue cut out for torturing me so.”
The servant made sure to bow extra low before leaving.

Vega, dressed in a tattered brown cloak as to not draw any attention from his clean, tailored servant attire, maneuvered through the raucous crowds that flowed through the streets like a stream of crude filth. The clouds of dust and stench of donkey dung stung the servants face, reminding him all too poignantly as to why he preferred staying in the Marquis’s palace. Collections of voices shouting with awe and excitement clued the boy that he was nearing his target. With a swifter pace he walked, shoving his way through tightly knit people, disregarding the irked stares he received as a result. More and more effort had to be put into his trudge as the crowd became even more condensed. The flowing stream had become a muddy bog of malodorous, sweating peasants that impeded the boy with every step, and with every push forward he had to shoulder some unwary townsman out of his way. The cries of amazement grew louder, but due to his short stature Vega could only go on a hunch that his target was on the other side of this thick wall of people.
Sensing he was near to his objective, he gave one final push to escape the suffocation and heat of the crowd and stumbled into a clearing in the town square. He bent over, resting his hands on his knees to try and catch his breath for a moment before resuming his mission. At length, he looked up and composed himself, brushing his hair from his face. In the center of the clearing was the woman he was sent to find.
She was tall, having a complexion of mahogany, and draped in a blue cotton sleeveless dress, showing off her lean, wiry arms. A gold sash was tightened around her waist, showing off her healthy figure. With every turn of her head her beaded braids clattered together like a rain storm in the night. The woman was in the middle of a performance, twirling her hands in the air as paper birds fluttered around her, tracing the arcs of the woman’s hands. The throng of spectators, mesmerized, let out in unison their oohs of amazement. By the woman’s sandaled feet was a sack, presumably containing the stranger’s belongings, and a rusted plate, specked with a few mercy-thrown coins. Occasionally a ting of metal sounded as another coin landed into the meager pile.
The woman lifted her hands over her head, and the circling birds rose as well until they orbited like a living halo above the woman’s head. With a clap of her hands, the paper birds collided into each other, and with a spark, they ignited on impact. The crowd gasped as glowing embers fell over the foreigner like fiery snow. Terrified gasps gave way to a lull of silence, but from the stillness erupted a wave of roaring applause.
The woman took a graceful bow, pointing her hands towards the rusted plate. The cheering spectators were more than willing now to part with their hard-earned coin and within moments the rusted plate was filled with gold. But inevitably, the shower of coin ceased, and eventually the packed crowd began to slacken and disperse. The woman, with no little effort, lifted her plate full of earnings and dumped it all into her satchel.
“Excuse me!” Vega said, stepping towards the woman.
“The show has ended, good sir,” the Abyssinian said without looking at her addresser.
“I’m aware of that. I’m here on behalf of my master Marquis Raymond de Villa. He would like to make use of your sorcery. He suffers from ills that can only be rectified by the aid of the supernatural.”
The woman slung her satchel over her shoulder, still refusing to look at young Vega. “My shows are merely tricks, dear sir—Illusions that fool the senses. I bid you good day.”
The woman took one step past the servant, but Vega swiftly grabbed ahold of the stranger’s forearm. The jolt caught her off balance and she nearly fell over onto her back.
“Your reputation precedes you, Abyssinian,” Vega said. “I once lived with charlatans and petty street magicians; I can see what is real and what is false. There are more than mere illusions behind your magic. The amount of gold you made today is nothing compared to what my master can offer you.” His voice was a forceful whisper that seeped into the woman’s ears. Her eyes widened with intrigue and her nostrils perked as if she could smell her fortune. She turned to face Vega for the first time, grinning.
“Well why did you not mention that particular detail earlier?” the woman said. “For a second I thought you had confused me for a charity-working nun.” She put a hand on her chest. “You may call me Nekayah. Now, we mustn’t delay, take me to your bereaved master.”
Nekayah’s head darted about, not so much observing the finely threaded silver silken tapestries or the glazed oriental pottery, but rather taking into account the unholy silence that pervaded the grand halls of the Marquis’s palace. All sound came from her jingling beads and footsteps. Vega had learned to soften his heels as they hit the white marble tiles, as to not disturb the Marquis’s silence. The colossal windows of the palace let in copious amounts of sunlight, yet there still seemed to be a sickly grayness to the place. The doors to the Marquis’s bedchamber were closed, as usual, but after a swift knock of Vega’s knuckles on the polished wood, faint stirring could be heard from beyond the threshold. After some length, the door cracked only a sliver to reveal a slit of blackness.
“So you have returned,” said the Marquis. “I assume this is the person you spoke of. The sorceress?”
“Indeed, Your Grace!” Vega beamed his gap-toothed smile. “Her name is Nekayah and I have seen her work her magic. Her powers will be perfect to assist you—”
“Speaking of which,” Nekayah interrupted, “what is it that makes the good Marquis suffer so? I was dragged off the streets with nigh a single detail. I make no promises until I know what you task me with.”
Vega’s grin vanished and he shot piercing glare at the Abyssinian, but the woman merely crossed her arms, still waiting for her questioned to be answered. “Have you no manners?!” Vega exclaimed. “I did not drag you anywhere—”
“No,” the Marquis said, opening the door further, revealing his gaunt visage, “she has every right to know the situation.” With yellow, bloodshot eyes sunken in misery-wrinkled sockets, the Marquis’s stare was enough to make the sorceress flinch. “My mother died when I was a boy, my father died only a few years after, and now, the Fates have taken my last and greatest love away from me. I ask you that you bring my sweet Antonia, my wife, back from the dead. I beg you.”
Upon uttering the request the sorceress turned on her heels and began to walk away.
“Wait!” cried the servant. “We promise you gold! Where are you going?”
“The dead are not to be trifled with,” Nekayah said “Ever!” Once again she refused to look at her addresser as she spoke. “No gold is worth committing such blasphemies!”
“Vega,” said the Marquis calmly, “have the guards kill this woman once she steps outside the palace.”
Nekayah stopped and swung her head around to gaze at the Marquis. Her beads clattered loudly. “I beg your pardon?!”
“Tell me; is your life worth it? I will let you know that my wife is worth at least ten Abyssinian witches.”
Nekayah stood rigid for a few moments, jaw and fists clenched, but inevitably she smiled and dipped into a curtsy. “It seems you have acquired yourself a sorceress.”
With a torch in hand, Vega led the Marquis and Nekayah down a tight stairwell into the ancestral crypt beneath the palace complex. The putrid air of the subterranean passage was sour enough to make the sorceress’s nose burn, and the stone walls that pressed against her shoulders were coated with a slime of black and blue mold so thick that one could mistake the corridor for intestines of a dead whale. Nekayah had to pinch her nose to keep from sneezing, but it helped little as the woman sprayed Vega’s back again and again with spittle.
“The bowels of Tartarus are more habitable than this,” Nekayah said, wiping her nose on her forearm. “To think, you keep your loved ones down here.”
At the bottom of the steps was a large circular chamber, within the curved wall of the chamber were numerous recesses in which numerous coffins rested, containing the remains of the Marquis’s family. Nekayah’s eyes locked onto a freshly placed coffin, one that had not been blanketed over uncountable decades of all-consuming mildew. “I’ll assume your wife rests in that one.”
“You assume correctly, witch,” the Marquis said. “Now how do you plan to bring her back to me?”
Nekayah glared at the Marquis. “First, Your Grace, I insist that you refrain from calling me by such a dreadful moniker. I can only bend my pride so far, and if you do not respect me then today will be difficult for the both of us.”
“I’m sorry for her rudeness, Your Grace,” Vega said, putting his torch into a holder on the wall.
The Marquis waved a hand in dismissal. “Don’t apologize for her, Vega. Just help her with the preparations.”
Nekayah and the Vega pried open the coffin containing the withered green corpse of Antonia. The servant’s body trembled as he gazed upon the ghastly remains. But his terrified stare only lasted for a brief second. A rotten stench of decaying meat wafted from the coffin and Vega could not prevent himself from stepping back and vomiting. Nekayah grimaced, pinching her face not at the overwhelming stench, but at the defilement.
“Help me, boy!” Nekayah barked. Vega spat out the last globs of yellow bile before collecting himself. Together they gently lifted Antonia’s body out of her coffin and slowly stepped towards the center of the chamber. Antonia’s flesh felt cold and damp, and her skin felt loose on her bones. With the utmost care they set Antonia’s corpse on the moist stone floor.
“This is vile,” Vega said, shaking his head at Antonia’s body. “This is wrong.”
This was your idea.” Nekayah pulled a jug of dark liquid from her satchel.
Its contents sloshed loudly, and at once Vega guessed what it was, dropping to his knees. “Lord, save us.” The boy looked over at the Marquis who was patiently waiting in the periphery of the torchlight, staring unblinkingly at the sorceress as she began to draw a circle of blood around the corpse with her hand. She then began to adorn the rim of her circle with sigils of an unknown language and after some length, her macabre scene was complete.
“There is only one thing left to complete the process,” Nekayah said, looking over at the Marquis. “But first I must know something for the sake of my Mistress: Do you love your wife?”
“Do you intend to mock me, or have you been deaf this entire time?!” the Marquis said. “With every bit of my being, I do!”
“Do you want to hold her again, lay your head on her bosom, and embrace her with the fiery passions that intoxicated you when you first fell in love? Are you willing to defy God and his arbiters of destiny? Does your passion boil the blood in your veins?”
“Yes, yes, a million times yes!” The Marquis’s face, once gaunt and lifeless, was now livid with warm tears and tensed muscles. “I am not afraid, sorceress! If I am to be condemned for my love, then so be it! I’m already in Hell! I have nothing more to lose!”
“There is always more to lose.” The sorceress pulled a dagger out from her satchel and unsheathed it to reveal an ivory blade etched with alien markings like those on the blood circle. With a wave of her finger Nekayah beckoned the Marquis to come close. The young nobleman was hesitant, but reassured by the Abyssinian’s gentle nod. When he came, Nekayah snatched his hand and slid the blade over his palm. Vega yelped and looked away. Nekayah then held the Marquis’s hand over the circle, letting droplets of blood rain upon his beloved’s rotting visage.
“That was the final ingredient,” the sorceress said.
“Good,” the Marquis said. “Now, call upon your devils and bring my wife back!”
Nekayah grinned. “Devils and demons are fairytales spawned from backless, over-imaginative dogma and superstition, meant only to frighten the ignorant, Your Grace. The powers I draw upon are far more real—far more potent. Now, I urge you to stand back.”
The Marquis, once again, did as he was told, giving Nekayah a wide breadth. The sorceress kneeled down before the circle and the corpse within and began to utter a long string of words that neither of the two men could decipher. Vega could feel the crypt start to shake—the very ground was beginning to tremble in unison with the young servants shuddering heart. Nekayah’s body was suddenly seized by rapid convulsions, and her arms waved and arced all around while her head whipped back and forth.
“Our Father who art in Heaven…” Vega whispered to himself. He sat in the corner of the chamber, arms wrapped around his legs, tears overflowing from his eyes. “Hallowed be thy name…”
Thunder clapped from within the depths of the earth, and Vega cried out again, starring at the floor. Nekayah’s shadow, which was once a perfect silhouette of her own body, was now a mass of inky black tendrils, writhing independently of Nekayah’s movements.
“By kingdom come, thy will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven!” Vega’s words quivered as his blood, iced with incomprehensible terror, made him tremble at his very core. The voice that came out of the Abyssinian’s mouth was not her own any longer, having adopted a guttural tone of several voices speaking as one. Then, suddenly, reaching the climax of her chant, Nekayah fell forward onto the ground. Her shadow once again reflected the contour of her own body, and a heavy stillness had returned to the world.
“You have failed me,” the Marquis said, stepping closer to examine the corpse.
“I can only wish that was the case,” Nekayah said with her original voice. She picked herself up off the floor and glared at the Marquis. “Take a closer look and see what have forced me to bring into this world!”
Antonia’s corpse twitched like an unholy marionette, each limb moving out of sync with the others. Her rotted, hollow eye-sockets glowed with pinpricks of the light of consciousness that was recalled into the dead vessel. Antonia sat up, making skin and tendons locked in rigor mortis stretch and tear loudly. Vega swooned. The Marquis reached out a hand to stroke his beloved’s hair, which had since death turned from glossy locks of gold into frayed shafts of brittle yellow weeds.
What have you done…?” The Marquis said, shooting a grimace back at Nekayah. “She’s hideous!”
“I only did what Your Grace demanded of me,” Nekayah said. She refused to look the animated corpse or the Marquis, and was instead staring down at the pitiful servant boy sobbing quietly against the wall in a puddle of his own waste.
“But she is—!”
“A corpse? Well of course, it is! What fantasies did you have stored in your little head about the outcome of this? I brought her soul back into this world as you asked! Only God knows the formula to make the synthesis of spirit and body truly complete!” Still without looking at the Marquis, she pointed to the corpse. “This is the best I can do with the body you provided me!”
“Is that you, Raymond?” Antonia said. Her decayed vocal cords were only capable of creating the hoarsest of tones. Antonia’s hand clutched onto the Marquis’s wrist. Her diamond ring sparkled on her blue, bloated finger. The Marquis recoiled, pulling his arm away and quickly stepping back from the creature. “Help me! I feel strange!” The monster wailed like an infant calling for its mother, and with difficulty, Antonia lifted herself onto stiffened legs. She teetered about, jerking with unwholesome movements. “What is wrong? I can’t feel my body! Oh God, help me!”
“Undo your magic, sorceress,” the Marquis demanded. Eyes wide with fear and swollen with tears, the young man turned away from his wife, pulling on his own hair. “I have seen enough!”
As the Marquis spoke, Nekayah was already moving towards Antonia with her ivory dagger drawn. With a swift stab to the chest, the ghoul shrieked and fell limp. The moments that followed were characterized by more thick, unyielding silence. It was as if the universe herself had to pause and recollect her thoughts after witnessing what had just unfolded in her presence. The three still-living humans looked at the corpse and then looked at one another.
“Is it safe to say, your grace, that our business is quite done here,” Nekayah asked, sheathing her ivory dagger.
“Please, let us be done,” Vega echoed.
“What if we get a fresher body?” the Marquis asked. “Something that isn’t so rotted? Will your spell work better in that case—” Nekayah’s hand struck across the Marquis’s face so hard and fast that the young man’s entire torso tilted to one side, nearly losing balance. The Marquis held his throbbing cheek and with glazed eyes stared at the woman who struck him.
“Fool!” Nekayah shouted. “I have lost patience with you and your madness!”
With a swift kick of the Marquis’s boot, Nekayah was sent slamming into the floor. Her many beads clattered against the hard, wet stones. The young nobleman then pressed his foot over the woman’s neck. He revealed a dagger of his own from under the folds of his coat, pointing its steel blade down at the sorceress. “You did not answer my question, witch. Will a fresher body do?”
Only muffled chokes came from the sorceress as she violently tugged on the man’s boot.
“I must side with the woman on this, your grace!” Vega said, getting to his feet. “We tried and we failed! No more of this, I beg you!”
The Marquis laughed. “Since when did the opinion of sniveling boy weigh on the mind of a Marquis? Hmm?” He bent down, putting more pressure on Nekayah’s neck. Tears were rolling down across her face now. “Maybe your body would do? You are, in a way, rather attractive. With your body and Antonia’s personality, I believe I would be happy enough.”
“But, your grace…” Nekayah coughed, “think clearly! Who would perform the spell?”
The Marquis smiled. “I could still kill you, regardless. A useless witch is as good as a dead one. So for a second and final time I ask this: will a fresher body do?”
“Yes! But who are you going to kill, honestly?”
The Marquis’s eyes turned to Vega.
Vega flinched and bowed to avoid eye-contact. “I’ll fetch another woman for you immediately, your grace.”
While the servant’s eyes were lowered, the Marquis raised his dagger. “I do not see it necessary to bring others into this affair. Sneaking kidnapped women into my palace would not be healthy for my reputation. Let us just keep all of this between ourselves. And besides, you have such a fair appearance that I never found displeasing.” The Marquis stepped towards Vega, taking his foot off of Nekayah’s neck. The Abyssinian only had a mere second to warn the poor boy of the dagger overhead. Vega, who had already begun to realize the Marquis’s intentions, had looked up, but had no time to avoid the cold steel blade enter the side of his neck. The sharp pain was quickly numbed as his body lost all feeling and he collapsed to the floor.
“I have seen many monsters in my day, but you…” Nekayah began.
“But nothing, you Abyssinian bitch!” The Marquis whipped his still-dripping dagger at the woman’s face. Droplets of blood splattered on her cheeks. “You will see this through to the end. Now, with this fresh body, bring my wife back, or so help me, Lord, I will not let you see the sunlight again.”
Nekayah heaved her shoulders in a heavy sigh, running her fingers through her jingling braids. The Marquis’s breathing was hard and fast, fueled by the adrenaline unleashed from taking the life of his closest servant. Seeing no choice, repainted the circle of blood, placed Vega’s body in the middle, and asked for the Marquis’s palm. This time, however, the Marquis held his dagger to the sorcerer’s neck, making sure Nekayah only drew enough blood necessary to complete the spell. Once again the walls of the catacombs shook and mystic’s shadow took on a shapeless form of wriggling tentacles. After a few moments, the walls ceased to shake and sanity was restored the world around them.
Vega’s corpse kicked its limbs out straight and quickly sat upright. Nekayah stood up and stepped back from animated body, letting the Marquis observe her work. The Marquis approached assuredly, seeing Vega’s body move with more grace and coordination than Antonia’s foul cadaver. This body was indeed a much more suitable vessel for his wife’s spirit, the Marquis thought.
“Antonia?” The Marquis asked. “Can you hear me?”
Vega’s head nodded with subtlety that mirrored any living individual. “Yes, my dear Raymond, I have missed you.”
The dagger fell from the Marquis’s slackened hand and the young man fell to his knees, tightly embracing Vega’s possessed body. The nobleman’s warm tears drenched the shoulder of Vega’s tunic as the grown man wept with sobs so visceral that they made his whole body shudder. “Thank you, sorceress! Thank you—”
Vega’s hands grabbed ahold of the Marquis’s neck and began constricting like a vice. The Marquis coughed, trying to pull the animated corpse off of him as the pricking sensation of fingernails digging to neck skin deepened, drawing blood. His voice was squeezed down to a shrieking whisper. “Antonia!”
One of his hands found the dagger he had dropped on the floor and he desperately started jabbing it into Vega’s flank, only to prove how futile his efforts were. The Marquis rolled his eyes to see Nekayah standing, watching the murder with a distant, unflinching stare. Staring back into Vega’s eyes, he saw only rage. It was not Antonia’s spirit that possessed this vessel. He then realized, all too late, what the witch had done.
Nekayah noticed the glint in the dying man’s eye and finally spoke. “I think you finally understand. May this be retribution of a sort for all three of us.” She said nothing else, and waited patiently for the Marquis’s eyes to roll into the back of his skull. When the nobleman ceased tostruggle, Vega let go and turned to face Nekayah.
“Do you wish to return, or stay with me?” Nekayah asked, ivory dagger in hand. “I did not wish for you to bear the price for your master’s sin. That is the only reason why I offer you this choice.”
Vega said nothing, but Nekayah could see the burning rage behind those dead blue eyes. In a flash the cadaver lunged at the Abyssinian, running straight into Nekayah’s outstretched blade. The body, now once again devoid of life, rolled onto the floor. The sorceress was left alone to stare at the three corpses sprawled out before her in the dancing firelight. She shook her head, knelt down by Antonia and slipped the diamond ring off her lifeless finger and held it up closer to the torch; examining its countless glimmering facets. “I’ll consider this due payment for my trouble.”

Dying of the Light


The Dying of the Light
By D.D.R. Hall
       Old Mr. McShanigan slowly opened his thick, wrinkled eyelids, feeling his heart sputter. It was like the faint wing-beats of a moth inside his chest. His body shot upright and he put a hand over his chest, breathing fast, eyes bulging. The morning sun was beaming through the sepia curtains, illuminating half the room in a faded brown light. The old man’s panting drowned out the chirping of the birds outside.
On his bedside table was a collection of wooden ducks, but also a little orange bottle of pills which McShanigan strained to reach. Damp, sweaty sheets clung to his withered frame, hampering his movement. He could feel his strength flickering out, but his hands were so close to the bottle. The prune-like nubs of his fingertips writhed, inching closer while his hold on life began to slip.
He suddenly recoiled; his chest sparked with pain. For several minutes he lay twitching and shivering.
In an instant, the fluttering stopped. McShanigan patted his chest and breathed a deep sigh. His attacks were becoming more frequent, and violent awakenings were becoming a bit of a macabre routine. The pills on his night stand were supposed to help, but after a while McShanigan began to suspect they were placebos. The attacks came and went as they pleased regardless. The doctors didn’t have the heart to tell him he was just an old fart running on borrowed time. But still, it was better than nothing, even if they only gave him a skeptical hope.
Ever since he retired McShanigan had been conscious of his age, knowing there were just some things he couldn’t do anymore and never would do again. His joints ached often, and he had little energy to leave the house anymore—the distance between the bed and the door might as well have been the length of a football field. A simple cough would rattle him to his core. All of them were grim milestones.
I shouldn’t be scared…” he grumbled, his voice a hoarse whisper. That was a phrase he found himself saying a lot. But the fact that he said it so much only reminded him of the truth.
McShanigan was no stranger to death, however, even when he was younger. Relatives and friends had died in almost every way possible; violent, peaceful, by accident, and even by suicide. His mom, his brother, and his sister were all resting silently in the cold earth. He felt fortunate he had seen so many sunrises, but now his sunrises were more and more of a surprise. He also knew that there were times when his own will to live made all the difference in his life. His surgeries, his time in Korea, all those instances Death had tried to claim him, but he fought him off.
I’ve seen you more than most,” he said, “haven’t I?” He coughed a bit, rubbing the blood away under the sheets. “You know, there’s part of a poem I live by. Do not go gentle into that good night, old age should burn and rave at close of day. Rage, rage against the dying of the light.”
Rage, rage against the dying of the light, indeed,” said a voice from the dark side of the room.
The old man turned to see a familiar figure dressed in wisps of black. His hooded face was a shadow made of mankind’s darkest fears. In his withered hands he held a scythe and on his chest was a little, cartoonish skull pin.
McShanigan snorted. “So you think you’re actually going to get me this time, huh?”
Would it be so unreasonable if I said yes? You’re eighty five years, seven months, and five days old. That’s a very fortunate lifespan, don’t you think? Tell me, how much longer were you planning on living?”
I’ve bested you before and I’ll do it again!” The old man reached for the pill bottle and chucked it at the specter. It went straight through the dark figure, crashing against the wall behind him. Little white pills rained onto the floor while Death sighed, slowly shaking his head.
What did you think that would accomplish, seriously?”
However, McShanigan wasn’t finished yet. He reached for his pillows, a water bottle on his bedside table, anything he could get his hands on.
Death tried to protest. “Wait just a moment—!” A pillow flew through his void-like face and gently smacked against the wall. Before he could speak again, a wooden duck shot through his chest, clattering on the floor. To humor himself, Death tried to catch a shoe that was arcing through the air only to have it pass through his hands. The pelting of assorted bedroom objects continued until the old man had strewn all of his nearby belongings onto the floor.
Are you done yet?” Death asked after a green-headed mallard skimmed over his shoulder.
The old man looked around desperately for another thing to throw, something, anything. He grimaced as pain shot through his arms, his joints stung from his startled fit. He pulled down a small wooden crucifix that was hanging above his bed and waved it in front of his face. To accompany the display of sudden piety, McShanigan began reciting the Hail Mary, tripping over words as he spoke faster than his tongue could manage. Death held a hand over his void-like face, rubbing a nonexistent forehead, and began to chuckle.
You’ve got to be kidding me…” Death tried to catch his breath before continuing. “Remember when you tried that on me in Korea?” He laughed a bit more before taking a deep inhale to end his giggles. That laugh echoed in the caverns of McShanigan’s head, reminding him of their first meeting when Death was standing over his crashed fighter—a heap of twisted metal painted in blood and smoke. Death had been very busy that day.
And it worked!” McShanigan replied.
It wasn’t the darned crucifix, and you know it. You were a stronger man back in those days. A fit soldier. I was actually doubtful myself in that situation.” Death snapped his fingers as if he suddenly recalled something. “I remember that locket you were holding, the one with your wife’s picture inside.”
What about it?”
You kept looking at that locket while you waited to be rescued. It helped keep you alive. You must miss her now...” Death tilted his head at the old man’s frown. “Don’t you…?”
McShanigan waved a hand in dismissal. “Bah! Things got a lot quieter after she went. I’ve had peace—time to myself.”
Death shook his hooded head. “You don’t mean that.”
And what if I do?”
The specter was silent.
You’re not taking me anywhere!” McShanigan yelled before he could feel the regret sink in.
Death let out a sigh. “Please, you’re making this difficult? It’s not exactly fun to drag you guys kicking and screaming after the ten billionth time.”
There was a sudden knock on the bedroom door and a tiny voice called out from the other side. “Granddad? Are you alright in there? Who are you talking to?”
I’m fine, Wally,” McShanigan said. “I just had one of my flashbacks…that’s all.”
Oh…ok. Can I come in? Mom told me to keep an eye on you while she’s at work.”
You can let him in if you want,” Death said, gesturing for the door. “He won’t be able to see or hear me. It would be nice to see him one more time, don’t you think?”
McShanigan nodded, sniffing. “You can come in, Wally.”
The door slowly creaked open and Wally poked his round face through the gap. His curly dark hair reminded McShanigan of the hair he used to have. Unconsciously, the old man rubbed the smooth dome of his head while his grandson stepped inside. The young boy was only six, or maybe seven, McShanigan wasn’t exactly sure.
What happened?” Wally asked, looking at the mess on the floor. He gently kicked a brightly painted Mandarin duck statue lying next to him.
It was just my flashback…” McShanigan looked down at his grandson, but could still see Death in the corner of his eye. “Come up on my bed, I haven’t seen you all day.”
Wally ran over with a burst of energy and belly flopped onto his grandfather’s bed. He breathed in deep, McShanigan knew he enjoyed the musty orange scent of the room. Without coercion he sat up and tackled his grandfather with a tight hug. McShanigan coughed, feeling the wind getting squeezed out of his lungs. He hugged Wally in return, patting his thick head of hair.
So what did you do today?” McShanigan asked.
I watched TV…um…I made my bed…I ate breakfast...played with the puppy…watch TV—oh! I helped mom make her lunch for work!” A broad grin appeared on the boy’s face.
McShanigan smiled back. “Did you? I bet she appreciated that, didn’t she?”
Wally nodded wildly, threatening to snap his tiny neck. “I burned her toast. But she said she enjoyed burnt toast. Did you know that? I didn’t. Did you? I didn’t know she liked burnt toast.”
No, I didn’t know that.” The old man laughed and Wally was quick to join in. His laughing stopped, though, the moment his eyes met Death’s observant gaze.
If it comforts you,” Death began, still standing in the dark, “I won’t be visiting your grandchild for a very long time.”
What are you looking at, granddad?” Wally asked, gazing across the room. “There’s nothing over there.”
McShanigan could feel his eyes start to moisten and he wanted to cry out. “I love you dearly, you know that, right? Now pull out a piece of candy from the bedside table and go back downstairs.”
Wally let out a cheer; he hopped off the bed, raided the bedside table for a couple of Kit-Kat bars, and stampeded out of the room. “See you at dinner, grandpa!”
McShanigan and Death were alone again. For a moment there was silence as they listened to Wally’s tramping footsteps grow fainter.
You see that there?” McShanigan said, his eyes watering. “You want to take a boy’s grandfather away when he’s so young? It’ll ruin the poor child. How cruel can you be?”
Sooner or later I take everyone. It’s only fair, not cruel.” Death pointed at the old man. “But tell me this! Would you want your grandson to see you continue to fade until you are nothing more but a soul trapped in a crippled body, too feeble to move or talk?”
McShanigan grumbled under his breath.
I’ve come to those bedridden, trapped in a coma, with families grieving their loved one’s continued existence. It pains them more than you know, and to want your own family to suffer that…” Death leaned on his scythe as if his memories were weighing on him. “Trapped inside, hearing your family’s anguish and being able to do nothing to help…you would wish for me to come then.”
The old man didn’t say anything, but he trembled a bit more. Snot and tears dripped from his face. He wanted to cry out, but he didn’t dare have his grandson see him like this. Cold reality had impacted him hard.
It would be nice if I could see a smile more often,” Death muttered to himself. “But it always has to be gloom and tears, doesn’t it?”
Death walked over to the old man’s bed, making McShanigan recoil under the covers as the apparition sat down beside him. Gently, he patted the huddled, shaking man under the covers. “I know you’re terribly scared. Most people are…making wholesale fools of themselves. They’ll thrash and cry and whine just like you. People love to be a pain in the end. But just like you, some were expecting it. Even when they seemed calm, deep down they were still scared. They were afraid of what awaited them because they never really know what comes next.”
McShanigan could feel the cold fingers, akin to icicles, caress over his back. It was strangely soothing, inviting. But that only made him shake more.
Death pulled back the covers and stared at the frightened man. “You don’t have the strength to fight me off this time.”
I know…and that terrifies me most of all.”
This is it.” Death said it simply. “But, you have no idea how lucky you are to be here, at home, in your warm, orange-smelling bed. You have a family that will mourn for you—remember you. There are infinite numbers of people who would have loved to switch places with you. If you don’t take my word for it then who’s will you take?” Death chuckled again. “I mean, I’ve seen it all! Literally! Drowning, being burnt alive…” He began holding up his fingers to keep count. “There was this one guy recently who was eaten by a polar bear. That was a little R-rated.”
Death is death. Once it happens there’s no difference.”
After it has happened, yes, that is true. But dying is not all the same. And you can’t ask for a more comfortable way to die.”
I could ask not to die at all!”
And I could ask to be the Prince of Denmark,” Death said. “But I doubt that will happen, no matter how many times I try. So are you ready to go?” He asked it so casually, like he was asking if the old man was ready to get some coffee.
McShanigan didn’t say anything for a few moments. “This is a more comfortable place than Korea.” His face twisted in a tight grimace, not wanting to spit out his next few words. “You’re right…dammit.”
Death nodded. “So relax, and don’t be scared. You’ve have raged quite well.”
McShanigan began to lay his head against his pillow before abruptly sitting up again. “What did my wife think about when she died? Tell me.”
If Death had a comprehensible face, he would have smiled. “She thought about you and her family. Rather obvious, no?”
McShanigan, still wearing an incredulous frown, softened his expression. Breathing deep, smelling the musty orange sent, he slowly looked around the room, savoring the sparse details. He looked at his belongings scattered about the floor—he had a lot of wooden ducks, he realized. He then leaned back and rested on the soft pillow, feeling the warmth of the sun on his creased cheeks. He closed his thick eyelids, letting the images of his bushy-haired grandson flicker in his mind as Death took hold.